Burning Bridges

As I sit here on a Saturday evening, having a cold beer waiting for the men to come back from the shops to BBQ, I can't help think about the people that I have left behind in London.

People that were my support system for 2 years.

People that turned from complete strangers into friends and substitute family.

Unfortunately that support system crashed.

My last 2 months in London were made awkward and almost miserable for the fact that I had a fall out with one of my housemates.  A girl I would say I was the closest to.

I found myself agreeing to go to every event from other friends just to get out of the house because I didn't want to be there anymore.

All of my work friends were aware of the fall out and started having random night outs just to help me get out of my house.

I wish I could say that this was the first time I have had a fall out with a close friend over the same reason (it was a guy btw - not a girl code break but choosing a guy you have known for 2 weeks over a friendship of almost 2 years doesn't fly with me.)

Before I left for London, a good friend had done almost the exact same thing and I had cut her out of my life.  After having friends ditch me at a concert because their boyfriend had showed up or cancel plans we had had for months because she wanted to hang with her new boyfriend - I decided to take a stand.

Turns out that although you will loose some good friends, at the end of the day you will feel much better about yourself.

Since I stopped being friends with this girl before I had left for my adventure, I put a new rule in place.

1 strike your out!

If you wrong me - that's it.  Sure I might play nice but I feel like you should know that it's fake,

I like to hold a grudge and burn my bridges.

Sure it's upsetting that a great friendship had to be sacrificed but that's just a price I am willing to pay.

After moving away from these failed friendships, I have always felt so much better about myself, and this is no different.

I am so much happier being home, and I am starting to get my life back on track.  I have a job interview in a couple of days and hopefully that brings a new bunch of friendships and adventures.  Hopefully friendships that survive the burning of the bridges!

Aussie Out

xo